Wednesday, January 05, 2005

Nothing much

There are no news yet. Bodies were found that could be theirs, one wasn't, we don't know about the second one. Waiting, waiting, waiting. Denial flies high still, this whole thing has nothing to do w me or mine because mine are all safe and sound somewhere. All of them. They have to be. I want to thank you all. You have helped me not feel so alone and desperate. I have to go away for a bit, in my voice I mean. I'm sorry. I read all your comments, I read your blogs but i cannot write anything, my written words are gone, they don't make any sense, I don't know why. I'm forcing myself to write this bcs I wanted to thank you personally but it's making me nauseated. Everything is more real in writing and i can't have that. So i'll just lurk till it's safe to talk again. I'll be around.
Love, J

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10 Comments:

At 6/1/05 06:36, Blogger brooksba said...

Johnny,

You are in my thoughts and I still hope for the best news. I wish I could offer more to you other than my prayers and hopes. I understand finding it hard to write anything. Don't worry about it. I will keep checking and I'll be here if you need anyone to talk to. Or if you need me to be here while you just don't have anything to say, I'll still be here.

Love and prayers,

Beth

 
At 6/1/05 09:21, Blogger Ana said...

Oh J, I am so sorry. Still praying for a miracle.

Ana

 
At 6/1/05 16:52, Blogger CarpeDM said...

Johnny,

I am here if you need me. I am praying for a miracle.

D

 
At 6/1/05 21:57, Blogger Dale said...

Hugs. Thinking of you, dear Lioness.

 
At 6/1/05 22:52, Blogger Soper said...

L, dear, I am so sorry. So, so sorry. Will keep checking back.

 
At 7/1/05 00:08, Blogger D.X. said...

i don't pray, but i am a big hoper. so i hope all turns out well for your loved ones.

 
At 7/1/05 00:26, Blogger TimT said...

Be strong, keep hoping. I wish I could say more.

We're here for you!

 
At 7/1/05 04:11, Blogger Lala said...

oh darling...........

 
At 7/1/05 20:48, Blogger elswhere said...

Johnny, I'm so sorry. I am thinking of you and yours. I hadn't checked your site for a few days and then just clicked over and read this. Just know we care about you out here, whether you're writing or not.

 
At 8/1/05 07:13, Anonymous Anonymous said...

J - still thinking of you all the time. you go right ahead and lurk. do whatever you need to do to get through each day. we'll be waiting for you. also, hoping you've seen gorgeous T's news.

xoxo Boulder

 

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